Like the saying goes “just do it, or you only live once” I’m told many times. Either my maturity level has finally caught up, or my priorities have changed. I have become a home body, sleeping early, waking up early for my morning run. Sipping on my morning coffee and enjoying the calmness of my home. I forget that a social life is needed at times.
I have no hesitation saying “No” to any upcoming event’s but feel guilty at times. I don’t miss the hangovers, midnight greasy hamburgers, or sleeping in on Sunday. I’ve realized that I have to balance my social life in so many levels. What use to be easy, is not as easy as I thought. I have realized that saying “No” sometimes comes at a cost. I have lost friends and close family. I will definitely take full responsibility for the outcome of my current abandoned social life. But I will not apologize.
I have realized with time that sometimes it’s good to put myself out there. I live in a very small city where everyone is very much alike. It almost feels like we all talk the same, love the same, and live the same. Little did I know that the world is a big place and the possibilities are endless.
I started taking small vacations. I’ve met interesting people, and I love when I meet people with different accents, different cultures, and different ways of thinking. I feel like a young girl learning something new. I find big cities interesting, full of life, and a rush of excitement creeps through every part of my body. I become hopeful and alive.
I look forward to my everyday routine, but mostly I can’t wait for my next adventure. Waking up to a different view, and sipping on my morning coffee in another part of the world. Maybe what I was saying “No” was too my old life, and yearning for a new life.